The results are in

Some of you may have already guessed our result seeing as I haven't posted for some time. The result isn't good...... We started with a positive pregnancy but our hcg levels where so low we felt we couldn't get excited, and we where right to not get our hopes us as we miscarried on Monday :-( Both Cam and I are feeling very sad right now. The whole process was very draining on us both financially, physically and mentally and to not only have such a poor response from the egg retrieval our one and only attempt we where able to get out of it all failed. I'm not sure what the future will hold as to whether we will do it all again. I think I might have it in me to have one last go at it but we will have to wait and see what Dr K says as to whether my body is up for it. With such a poor response this time I hate to think what the outcome might be if we try again. Every time I do a cycle I get less and less embryos and seeing as this time I only got one, I'm afraid next time there might be none especially seeing as we will have to wait until next year before we can save enough money. So for now we just have to wait and see, hopefully one day I'll be able to complete this blog with a wonderful success story of how we tried again and it worked.

Home Sweet Home

It feels so good to finally be home. Nothing beats the feeling of climbing into your own bed after being away, especially when it's 2:30am and your exhausted. We got a couple of hours sleep and then went straight out to my parents place to pick up Lawson. He looked so different, so much bigger. I guess you don't notice the little changes when your with someone every day. And of course he did the one thing I didn't want him to do while I was away - he took his first step...... I'm devastated that I couldn't be there for one of the biggest milestones in his life. Here's hoping we'll get the opportunity again with another baby.
The embryo transfer of our one and only embryo happened last night. Everything went smoothly so now we just have to wait. Hopefully the next time I post I'll have some good news.

Nearly home

We are at Singapore Airport with only 3 hours to go now till we start our trip home. Words cannot describe how good that feels.
Unfortunately our time in Singapore hasn't been all good, we got news on Friday that one of our embryos didn't make it, so now we are down to one..... We are now just hoping and praying that this little one is the one. I keep reminding myself that if we where doing ivf in Australia they would only be implanting one good quality embryo and people have gotten pregnant from that so hopefully the same will happen to us. If this embryo survives until tomorrow then it will be implanted into our surrogate. Everyone please cross all your fingers and toes for us, we need all the luck we can get at the moment.