All Booked

Flights where starting to fill up on the weekend and seeing as we got a confirmed date for the egg retrieval from Dr K I took the plunge and booked everything - eek! I arrive late evening on the 16th March and will start my stimulating medication the following day and Cam will arrive at 4am on the 28th March and we'll both come home together on the 1st April. Staying longer in Mumbai does come with a couple of perks, I get free breakfast daily, airport transfers and internet which is great for keeping the costs while there lower.
So it will be nearly 2.5 weeks away from home and my baby boy..... I don't know how I'm going to survive but I'm sure I'll find a way of getting through it. I know I'm a strong person and have been through worse things in recent years. Lawson will be very well looked after at his Nanny and Grandads house, I just hope he doesn't forget who I am while I'm gone......

Plan C

We embarked on this journey with 3 plans in mind to get us to egg retrieval. Plan A, Plan B and Plan C. Our main goal has been to cycle here at home for as long as possible as Cam doesn't have a lot of annual leave accrued and seeing as we are leaving Lawson at home with my parents while we are in Mumbai the least time away from Lawson the better.
Plan A -Was to get a GP to write a prescription for the medication needed, purchase it from a pharmacy and administer it myself. I have done 3 ivf cycles in the past so I know how to inject myself and how the medication works. Plus also I am under the direction of Dr K so if I had any concerns I could get her help if needed. After attempting plan A this week it failed as we found out that a GP is not authorised to prescribe fertility medication, only a fertility specialist is. Plus also one of the medications I need to be on is not available in Australia.
Plan B - See a fertility Specialist. After numerous phone calls and luck we managed to get a cancellation to see a fertility specialist yesterday. It ended up a waste of time and money because the minute the Dr heard the word "surrogacy" his wall went up and shut us out. He made us feel like what we are doing is illegal and we wanted him to help us break the law. This is defiantly not true. There are lots of grey areas in surrogacy and all we where wanting was this Dr to look outside the square and into the grey area but he wouldn't even look. Anyway I'm not going to get started on this subject as I would be here all day writing my views on the subject. So this now left us with our last option, Plan C.....
Plan C - I will fly to Mumbai on my own and do the entire treatment there and Cam will meet me there around day 11/12 just before my egg retrieval. I'm trying to just focus on the benefits of this rather than how much I am going to miss my boys. This way I can get all my medication without a problem but most of all we are not looked upon as a criminal, just a normal loving couple who are wanting a family.

UP and down.... Round and Round.....

Someone please hand me a spew bag cos I feel like I'm gonna be sick.....
It's weird how an emotional roller coaster can feel just like a real one. All of a sudden I've got a flash back of being on one of those sickening rides at the Royal Show.
Yesterday was another loop de loop on the surrogacy roller coaster and it left a sick feeling in my stomach. I'm pretty sure it all started because today I officially started my medication for my egg retrieval. At this stage it's only the birth control pill but it just made it all feel like a reality. It didn't help either that I found out the main swimming pool at the hotel were we where going to stay at (JW Marriott) is going to be closed for renovations so now we have to find another hotel and nothing else really compares to this one. We looked through it on our first trip to Mumbai and decided if we ever had to go back for another egg retrieval we would stay there. It's really a sanctuary in the middle of the madness of Mumbai and for me it was my mental sanctuary as well knowing that when we returned from the clinic each day we could unwind in luxury and for the rest of the day switch off and pretend that we where just there on a holiday. Anyway after a big D&M with Cam we worked through my issues and I'm now focusing on another hotel that can be my sanctuary. At this stage The Leela is on top of my list and one positive already is that because the rooms a bit cheaper than the Marriott we can afford to stay in one of the top rooms like the Executive Suite with access to the lounge with free cocktails and canapes in the evening. It might just feel like a holiday after all.....