Someone please hand me a spew bag cos I feel like I'm gonna be sick.....
It's weird how an emotional roller coaster can feel just like a real one. All of a sudden I've got a flash back of being on one of those sickening rides at the Royal Show.
Yesterday was another loop de loop on the surrogacy roller coaster and it left a sick feeling in my stomach. I'm pretty sure it all started because today I officially started my medication for my egg retrieval. At this stage it's only the birth control pill but it just made it all feel like a reality. It didn't help either that I found out the main swimming pool at the hotel were we where going to stay at (JW Marriott) is going to be closed for renovations so now we have to find another hotel and nothing else really compares to this one. We looked through it on our first trip to Mumbai and decided if we ever had to go back for another egg retrieval we would stay there. It's really a sanctuary in the middle of the madness of Mumbai and for me it was my mental sanctuary as well knowing that when we returned from the clinic each day we could unwind in luxury and for the rest of the day switch off and pretend that we where just there on a holiday. Anyway after a big D&M with Cam we worked through my issues and I'm now focusing on another hotel that can be my sanctuary. At this stage The Leela is on top of my list and one positive already is that because the rooms a bit cheaper than the Marriott we can afford to stay in one of the top rooms like the Executive Suite with access to the lounge with free cocktails and canapes in the evening. It might just feel like a holiday after all.....
It's weird how an emotional roller coaster can feel just like a real one. All of a sudden I've got a flash back of being on one of those sickening rides at the Royal Show.
Yesterday was another loop de loop on the surrogacy roller coaster and it left a sick feeling in my stomach. I'm pretty sure it all started because today I officially started my medication for my egg retrieval. At this stage it's only the birth control pill but it just made it all feel like a reality. It didn't help either that I found out the main swimming pool at the hotel were we where going to stay at (JW Marriott) is going to be closed for renovations so now we have to find another hotel and nothing else really compares to this one. We looked through it on our first trip to Mumbai and decided if we ever had to go back for another egg retrieval we would stay there. It's really a sanctuary in the middle of the madness of Mumbai and for me it was my mental sanctuary as well knowing that when we returned from the clinic each day we could unwind in luxury and for the rest of the day switch off and pretend that we where just there on a holiday. Anyway after a big D&M with Cam we worked through my issues and I'm now focusing on another hotel that can be my sanctuary. At this stage The Leela is on top of my list and one positive already is that because the rooms a bit cheaper than the Marriott we can afford to stay in one of the top rooms like the Executive Suite with access to the lounge with free cocktails and canapes in the evening. It might just feel like a holiday after all.....
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